Rebuilding the Mainstage

Today was not a good day.  I was downright cranky.

You want to push my buttons and piss me off? Bring up me and kids. Have I understated this? Do people just think I'm kidding? I do not ever want kids. I do not ever want to be an uncle. I just do not want kids in my life. Period.

Quite honestly, I doubt it would bother me if my family name ended with me and my brother. Would it be sad? Yeah, it probably would. It isn't what my ancestors and immediate family would want at all. My family certainly has a heritage and traits and traditions that are worthy of continuing. But I just don't want a part of it. That makes me a selfish prick. I know. Burn me at the stake.

Already being pissed off with that running through my mind for most of the morning I thought about a plan for my life. What would I like to accomplish? The next thoughts that came to mind were about how most people piss me off. Greed. Money. Power.

I would love nothing more than to pay my house off within 10 years. Yeah, it would require severe dedication of funds to do this. But the payoff to me would be rewarding. I don't need newer and bigger houses, vehicles and televisions. Why bother? Such excess is ridiculous. Are we really meant to just fly through life enjoying everything we can possibly put on credit? What right do you or I have to that type of greed?

No. I don't need that shit. My reward of having to owe absolutely nothing to anyone is charity.

Yes. Charity.

I'd love to be able to give to causes close to my heart. I want to be able to give so much that people make a big deal out of it. Then I can ask them what makes what I do so special? Shouldn't charity be so common that there is no need to trumpet the people who do so? I want to be able to give most everything of what I earn at work to causes. I would love to use time off to travel and help with various causes.

It just bothers me that people feel the need to climb the ladder to earn more money and give themselves more. There are people in the world who get by on far less than what many people waste in a year on frivolous shit.

I will never become one of the frivolous. And that gives me hope.